Letting go

I cant stand this anymore... i am letting go of everything once and for all... i am cold and heartless.... i dun care... i am letting go of my baby... i dun wanna give a damn abt him... he is none of my business.. i am already regretting it.. but the hurt it will caused me would be more regretful.. i think he is more happy with his gf... so why let me step into the picture? i am an outsider.. i have no more will to care anymore... it has almost killed me... haha... will this be what i want? i miss my baby.