IN DEEP SHIT

GOD!!!! i kissed him... of all person why him? shit... he was stunned... i was scared... what does that mean? haha... only heaven knowS!

i have no idea what to do now, can i just dump him? maybe i will just leave him slowly... that is so stupid. what abt my promise? what have i done? hmmm.... but i miss him badly... but what abt cs? that is what that is irritating... hmmm... can i leave this place once and for all... i promise myself that this will end in two and a half months time... i will be gone by then. ok?

that is why i dun dare promise that i will spend my birthday with him...