Shit lahx

am i allowed to swear here? haix.. i am in such a bloody mess now... so am i still infatuated with him or change liao? haix... bloody... so bloody.. haha... hmmm.. can anyone give me an answer?

i have decided to grow up so can i try to handle this more smoothly? hmmm... do i even like him or just int in him just as a friend? huh? i dunno i am soo not sure... haix... din thot of him as a nice person but he turns out to be fun too.. although sometimes a bit lame?

haix... hmmmmm... i dunno.. patience is the best solution to y problem now... haha... i dun want catalyst... my catalyst has always make me more hurt... haix.. haha