Unbelievable

I dunno what has caused me to have this idea of leaving, haha, but it will make me feel better. finally, i planned something but there is always the urge that i might tell him. gal. you gotta resist and find that determination you once got. i dun think he will even notice i am gone. but heys what is the real purpose? to not have any contact with him. then why shld i bother how he feels.

seriously i feel bad. imagine a friend treating me this way. i am last to know that my friend had quitted and worst thing is that i wont be able to find this person. wow. i will be devastated. it is like i am a monster to make that person avoid me that much. haha. it is wow.... it is for the best. dun think he will care anyway. so it doesn't matter i am there or not. it will be too late to find out then.

it is kind o sad to see us endin this way. we used to be really good friend. maybe we cross the boundary and thats why it turned out to be this way. gosh. but it is too late to amend in any way. it is over. no use crying spilled milk. i have made me decision and it will be it. theres no changing of mind. for now i will just be the stranger or the hi-bye friend. it is funny how he thinks that i still treat him like a friend. too bad too sad. i dun want to care. it is time to move on. without him. i will feel sad. that is normal. i also have to control the urge to contact him. haix. jiamin hang in there.