Feeling bad

Hmmm... i am not regretting what i am doin now. but seriously i need a break for my commontests. my studies comes first. haahaa... i feel bad doin this.. i miss him. and i have no faith in him. haha.... i avoided him like pests just now. haha... cox i cried a lot yesterday and he wasn't there to help me. not even there to be my friend. i could have died. but who cares. i have enough. i am taking a step back for the week. if he really loves me he will wait for the week. let's see whether sat he will talk to me. haha... i wish he will. let me not have another broken heart. pls let me be happy for this time. let him be mine. let him choose me. please. i plead? please?