Feeling bad

Hmmm... i am not regretting what i am doin now. but seriously i need a break for my commontests. my studies comes first. haahaa... i feel bad doin this.. i miss him. and i have no faith in him. haha.... i avoided him like pests just now. haha... cox i cried a lot yesterday and he wasn't there to help me. not even there to be my friend. i could have died. but who cares. i have enough. i am taking a step back for the week. if he really loves me he will wait for the week. let's see whether sat he will talk to me. haha... i wish he will. let me not have another broken heart. pls let me be happy for this time. let him be mine. let him choose me. please. i plead? please?

Love my baby

He said he will make the decisions on the 1 january. i was thinking that i am spending new year's eve with you. boo... it got me really confused. haix. i am really sad. haix. i may not seem like it. but i am seriously sad. haha...

thought things through. and i am happy. noe my limits and i will be able to give a bit more. but be sure of the requirements. haahaa... I LOVE WEILIANG!!!! my baby...

can i say i love him again...

Letting go

I cant stand this anymore... i am letting go of everything once and for all... i am cold and heartless.... i dun care... i am letting go of my baby... i dun wanna give a damn abt him... he is none of my business.. i am already regretting it.. but the hurt it will caused me would be more regretful.. i think he is more happy with his gf... so why let me step into the picture? i am an outsider.. i have no more will to care anymore... it has almost killed me... haha... will this be what i want? i miss my baby.

BaBy

I love my baby!!! boo... i hate to admit it.. haha... I LOVE MY BABY!!! it is totally worth it for him. i am lucky to find him...

How Can i resist?

How can i say no to my baby? He is my dearest now, i would never not listen to my baby.. haha... love him...it is only about cherishing the moment and enjoying while i can. I have not much time left. haha... it sounds like a time bomb. it is going off soon and neither of us would be happy. but i wish him all the best... if he cannot make a decision i would just leave even if it means breaking my promise. cant bear to let him caught in the middle for too long. boo...