Ergh

OOps.. i am here again...i miss him... boo... it is not good at all.. can i break my promise... i dun feel like keepin my promise... this is far too dangerous.. it is not fair for her... what am i supposed to do? is he playing with me? hmmm... i cant take it anymore... why did i promise him that i will continue teng him for 3 months.. at least one month is almost up... ergh.. why is it after his bday?

shld i continue the way we are now? ergh.... wth...

IN DEEP SHIT

GOD!!!! i kissed him... of all person why him? shit... he was stunned... i was scared... what does that mean? haha... only heaven knowS!

i have no idea what to do now, can i just dump him? maybe i will just leave him slowly... that is so stupid. what abt my promise? what have i done? hmmm.... but i miss him badly... but what abt cs? that is what that is irritating... hmmm... can i leave this place once and for all... i promise myself that this will end in two and a half months time... i will be gone by then. ok?

that is why i dun dare promise that i will spend my birthday with him...

Why does this has to be this way?

I was just wondering how muchi stand in his heart! Because it is really infuriating for me to care abt someone and not get any return. What is more is that i even tried to stop being stupid but i just cannot help it at all! Now i can only blame it on myself, deserves me right to drop in this bottomless pit... i just cant help but to fall deeper into the hole... when can i stop myself from plunging too much? haix...

he is a nice guy and a shy one too... he is just too cute.. saw him yeaterday when he passed me the money... haix... so lang bei... he looked so disheveles... almost hopeless.... wish him all the best lorx... he is not workin tomorrow coz he is doin proj. i think i will be meetin him on tues for the BBQ. hmmm... haix... forgot what to write le... dots..