Jealousy

First i did say i am in a mess... haha... i actually love someone that i am supposed to love... hmmm... he is attached if you dun noe what i mean...i am like a third party... but i cant deny the fact that we really hang well together... we are sort of partners in crime... haha... what shld i do?

my instincts tell me to lie low and not see him for the moment... cox it will spoil him choices...

i will do just that...

Confused

Yesterday, weiliang got drunk... he shouldn't have drink so fast and so much. Is there sumthing wrong? i am not sure. maybe i shouldn't go out that often with him. lala... hope it was nth...

just got back from the supper date with ah long... haha... so funny.. really enjoy tokin to him... have a feeling he likes me... lols.. so not funny... i hope i am not in deep shit...

dyed my hair red... the colour is so striking that everyone is talking about it... what am i supposed to do? i think i got to buy a new shampoo... for colour hair... haix...

i am such a spender.. i promised to change my ways... like now... gotta spend on practical things... gonna buy less clothes. booo... i love shopping.. haha

Good or Bad?

i do not like the way he compared me and his gf... it is not fair for her gf.. seriously... then still say she will kill me if she hears that i cheer him up.. what is the point? i have totally no idea... i din snatch.. and i din do anything wrong. Why shld she or he blame me?

I feel kind of uncomfortable when he told all those things to me, because it makes me feel that i am at fault here. I really have no idea what i shld do here.

Truth to say, I kinda wish that they break up soon. From what i gather from him, their relationships seems to be on the rocks. I do not think they are meant to be together. However, i do not think i have the right to say that. Maybe because I have no idea how did they started.

Anyway i am dead beat... I just hope them well. For i am his friend.

Is my subconcious concious yet?

i have no idea what my subconcious is thinking... and i have a really weird dream.. he asked me how many kids i wanted. and he said in my dreams that he wants to have kids with me... is this good or weird or really bad? what is my subconcious trying to tell me? haha... i think he likes me but he has his commitments! why do everything comes with a but? maybe that is because there are always pros and cons in a situation... now the weather is so warm... maybe i am used to an aircon enviroment. i am not bored today cos i got a lot of things on my mind? and yes my pay is coming! i also have a date to dye my hair!!! wahaha... so happy! SERIOUSLY!

i want to go shopping... i think i finally have to buy a eyebrow pencil because if i dye my hair violet gold i have to shave my eyebrows? ergh! i hate that! i love my eyebrows!

i think i kinda like him too... haix...i am getting sidetrack again. that is sad. can anyone stop this pls? i dun like this at all! i think he noes abt me and martin but that is all in the past. i hope he can understand that. i do not like this at all. can i ignore him? PLS?

Bleahx...

I noe we are just frenx... it is just as simple as that... haix... wateva... just dun feel good when ppl touch my face and hair... love my face and hair... i would not even let close frens get to touch it lahx.. just dun really like the rough way he handle me. forget it...

i am goin to dye my hair!!! i love my hair... but a little colour would not hurt... haha.. look at my hair and you will noe what kind of condition it is in... it is so damn nice to touch... when i did the temporary straightenin it looked so nice! haha...

anyway did cashier today... dun feel like using the jh ID... i dun want to use hers lahx... so disgusted... haha... nvm... will use it unless necessary... so tired now... think gotta sleep...